I'll be going to WAT USA in a few days le... I duno if it's this reason... but I've been reaching out to frens... not the type that are really close to me, but those whom I feel I want to care about. I dunno if it's because i'm going to be separated from them for quite sometime.
I remembered in the past when i entered Tekong where the1st 2 weeks was a confinement period, i almost couldn't take it. It made me realised that although i always thought i could be independent, maybe it wasn't so... I'll still miss familiarity of faces, even though in day to day cases i would not have usually talked to these faces at all.
I dunno if this applies to other ppl as well... ('', But i realized that i can be concerned about some ppl even though i may not be very close to them. These ppl may not play a significant role in ur life... may not cross path with u because of different schools, clubs, faculties or even all of the above... But u'll think about how they're doing... Perhaps on a certain day, u just remember about them when one memory triggers another.
I think maybe it's because they're nice person ba. ('', I feel that some ppl can be nice frens after playing around with them... bumping into them occasionally.. and finding that I can be comfortable around them after feeling that their character are sincere and accepting.
Haha!! But I think when it cominAg to maintaining relationships with others, i'm lazy to a fault. Outings?? Nah.. cannot... tmr got blah blah.. Buffet? u all go ahead ba.=) Overnight at chalet? ...err.
Anyway, i think on my journey there... i think i might experience a some level of panic. Cos the trip there will be all by myself. ( trip there only... not entire 3 mths...-_-''') The sense of being alone will be acute... but i guess, this trip will do me good. ('', Had plans to improve myself while i'm there. =p Dunno what i'll become after i come back. Maybe i'll still be the same daniel lee. The one with faults, insecurities, fears. Hesitant, reluctant, being too careful. No promises kay? ('',
