msn convo: Insecurity

(daniel): paper Sometimes I feel weak
(daniel): paper like i dun feel like doing anything
(daniel): paper and i dun have the will to make myself do it...
(daniel): paper like nothing matters

(daniel): paper On better days
(daniel): paper i feel lke that too alot
(daniel): paper I feel like i should do something
(daniel): paper and i feel differently
(daniel): paper like... i think a little different than most other days

Adhara how different?

(daniel): paper Well.. like... i'm mentally stronger
(daniel): paper and can get up and try to do stuffs
(daniel): paper But on those days
(daniel): paper I will also be worried
(daniel): paper that this is temporarily
(daniel): paper and it usually is.

(daniel): paper And after that i will go back to my weak self.
(daniel): paper Like... hmmm
(daniel): paper i'm 1/2 asleep most of the time, but sometimes i wake up
(daniel): paper but goes back to 1/2 asleep mode after that

Adhara i have felt like that

(daniel): paper Like when u see with your eyes... most of the time everything is blur...
(daniel): paper and sometimes u see things clearer
(daniel): paper then it goes back to being blur again.

Adhara mhm

(daniel): paper x.x

Adhara whts bothering woshy? D:

(daniel): paper lol the same thing :)
(daniel): paper and sometimes, i dun wanna
(daniel): paper get away from the com.
(daniel): paper cos i dun wanna be alone :P
(daniel): paper If i go afk or something
(daniel): paper ppl might afk or go off

Adhara rof
Adhara l
Adhara im the same

(daniel): paper or when ppl log on i'll miss them
(daniel): paper and when i come back, they're already offf.
(daniel): paper :x
(daniel): paper I think if my laptop spoils, I'll emo. lol

Adhara awwww
Adhara LOL
Adhara i have that too
Adhara >_>

Adhara im like that
Adhara my mom is like
(daniel): paper com is like...
Adhara "nothing happens if u are offline a couple hours"
Adhara me: D<<<<<<<<< YES

(daniel): paper lol

Adhara IT HAPPENS

(daniel): paper rofl

Adhara xD

(daniel): paper It's prolly worse now
(daniel): paper Adhara that I have more friends online than IRL -_-

Adhara same
Adhara lol

(daniel): paper i mean the ones i talk to.

Adhara mhm
Adhara same here lol

(daniel): paper it's a curse D:

Adhara nah
Adhara it makes u happy!
Adhara or
Adhara "happy"
Adhara at times

(daniel): paper it's like...
(daniel): paper watching shadows dancing on the wall
(daniel): paper and we keep watching it
(daniel): paper but the real action is behind u
(daniel): paper real ppl are dancing.
(daniel): paper with colors and music and stuffs
(daniel): paper :x

Adhara theres

(daniel): paper but u're afraid to turn around

Adhara real ppl behind the shadows >;

(daniel): paper wad if it's a lie?

Adhara the ones we want

(daniel): paper and when u turn back to the wall

Adhara arent the ones dancing behind u

(daniel): paper the shadows are gone?

Adhara mhm..
Adhara like
Adhara those shadows we watch doesnt come from behind of us
Adhara but from beyond >;
Adhara its like a shape on a window
Adhara on a rainy day

(daniel): paper yea

Adhara we dont wanna turn around cause we dont want whts behind
Adhara but we want whats behind that window
Adhara tho
Adhara so we stick to it
Adhara hoping one day
Adhara it is enough to fill our happiness
Adhara =/

(daniel): paper :x
(daniel): paper But i know it's not enough
(daniel): paper like...
(daniel): paper i dunno

Adhara its not real
Adhara :P
Adhara u can see and hear whts beyind the window
Adhara but u cant feel it
Adhara so u are never satisficed with it
Adhara cause ur asking for something that the window wont let u feel

(daniel): paper yea
(daniel): paper I could turn away from the window and go open the door and meet the real thing outside the window

(daniel): paper but if i do that
(daniel): paper I'll have to move further away from the window

Adhara mhm

(daniel): paper Like if u realli want something
(daniel): paper sometimes u have to leave it.
(daniel): paper to get it.

Adhara yah

(daniel): paper Q.Q

Adhara but that scares us >;
Adhara and makes us get lazy and decide less happiness but sure and warm
Adhara and comfy
Adhara than risking something
Adhara for soemthing better
Adhara >;

(daniel): paper But if i leave the window, the thing outside might run away while i'm not paying attention
(daniel): paper yea
(daniel): paper that's it.

Adhara yep
Adhara xD

(daniel): paper i wanna be like paper
(daniel): paper but i'm not him.
Adhara i wannabe like misa but im not her :P

(daniel): paper ROFL

Adhara im not the cheery childish girl >;
Adhara that she seems

(daniel): paper aww...

Adhara Q,Q

(daniel): paper huggie
(daniel): paper yea...
(daniel): paper misa in the story is brave
(daniel): paper and doesn't care wad ppl thinks of her
(daniel): paper well, tiny steps. :)
(daniel): paper just like Snolly did
(daniel): paper ... ... .(sn)

Adhara rofl
Adhara snolly <3

(daniel): paper ROFL

Adhara i never care wht ppl say >;
Adhara but i care about wht they feel >;

(daniel): paper aww..
(daniel): paper misa too nice.
(daniel): paper huggie

Adhara lol
Adhara just an idiot

(daniel): paper spankie yea
(daniel): paper =3

Adhara rofl

(daniel): paper the Smart idiot >:

Adhara mhm!

(daniel): paper Well... i'm feeling a little braver today....
(daniel): paper I'll afk abit. ._.

Adhara okie D:
Adhara :3
Adhara nothing will move from behind the window :3
Adhara cause everyone is too affraid to get far from it
Adhara :3

(daniel): paper D: I'll be a round
(daniel): paper I promise i will not run away from behind the window
(daniel): paper msg if anything. :)
(daniel): paper I'll read it in 2-3 hours

Adhara :3 okieeee

(daniel): paper (afk) ({)(sn) there!
(daniel): paper (afk) I gave u Snolly :3
(daniel): paper (afk) I'll get it back later :3
(daniel): paper (afk) cya!

Adhara <3
Adhara byeee
Adhara (})

(daniel): paper (afk) Byee